To believe or not to believe God. Is that your question? Is that your dilemma? In a sense, this dilemma is the ultimate wager.
Blaise Pascal said, “Let us weigh the gain and the loss, in wagering that God is. Consider these alternatives: if you win, you win all, if you lose, you lose nothing. Do not hesitate, then, to wager that he is.”
Jesus said that he is the way, the truth and the life. He said that no one comes to God the Father except through him. (John 14:6)
Understand to believe Jesus or believe to understand Jesus? Is that your dilemma?
Saint Augustine said, “Understanding is the reward of faith. Therefore seek not to understand that you may believe, but believe that you may understand.”