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“I carried you on eagles’ wings and brought you to myself.”  Exodus 19:4

“You whom I have upheld since you were conceived, and have carried since your birth….I have made you, and I will carry you.”  Isaiah 43: 3 and 4

My husband developed pain in his left hip last week.  Those of you who follow my blog, know that Howard had stage three lymphoma in 2013.  In light of his history, any little pain that might have been ignored, now has the capacity to arouse fear in both of us.  And we have been fearful as we await his routine three month check with the oncologist in a few days.

Last Sunday our Pastor was teaching from Exodus 34, teaching that the God of Moses seeks to be known, that he self-discloses.*  God said he is Hesed.  Some translations of Hesed are loving kindness, or steadfast love, or abounding in love. As Pastor Cody talked of trusting God’s love, he shared a story about his young daughter.  He asked her, “How do you know I love you.”  She replied, “Because you snuggle with me.”

How do I know that God extends his Hesed to me?  He snuggles with me.  He holds me.  He carries me.  He always has.  He always will.

In the quiet of worship, I decided it was a good week to really lean into my Daddy God, to let him hold me and calm me with his love.  As we drove home from church, in my mind, I kept hearing the words and music of the late Rich Mullins:  “Hold me Jesus.  I’m shaking like a leaf.  You have been my King of Glory.  Won’t you be my Prince of Peace?.”**

This morning during my quiet time with God, the words and music from Matt Maher came to mind: “I just want to be in your arms, moving ever closer to your heart.”***

Fears have been calmed.   Whatever lies ahead, all will be well, because of God’s Hesed.  I am being held.  My husband is being held.  We are in the everlasting arms of our Lord.

*You can listen to Pastor Cody Kargus’s sermon of 3/8/15  at www.maranthafree.com

** Hold Me Jesus by Rich Mullins

*** Letting Go by Matt Maher/Paul Moak

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Fog, Fear and Faith

Yesterday we awoke to a soft and mysterious thick fog.  By mid morning, when it still hadn’t lifted, we left to drive the 18 miles to town to get our Thanksgiving groceries.  I wondered if our trip in poor visibility was too risky.   This morning I realized yesterday’s adventure had become a metaphor, as I read the last chapter of Luci Shaw’s book, The Crime of Living Cautiously.

In that chapter, Luci Shaw wrote, “The cliff edge of our anxiety about the future may indicate that God is calling us to a new and different level of faith.  When we walk, praying for guidance, to the edge of all the light we have and breathlessly take that first step into the foggy mystery of the unknown, we must believe that one of two things will happen: either God will provide us with something rock-solid to land on and stand on, or he will teach us how to fly.”   In her questions for reflection she asks, “Have you made the choice between living by fear or by faith?  What is you cliff edge of anxiety?”

I want to live by faith, not fear.  How about you?  Today I thank God for the wonderful adventures he has led me on and the courage he gave me to follow.  I want him to know that I am willing to continue the journey, even when the fog is thick and the next step is frightening.  Lead on, Oh God.

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