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“This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us.  And if we know that he hears us – whatever we ask – we know that we have what we asked of him.” I John 5:14-15

I had been faithfully praying for one of the deepest desires of my heart, one of my fondest dreams.  I was confident that this prayer was according to God’s will, and so I was confident that the answer was yes, confident the fulfillment was just a matter of time.

Then my dream suddenly crashed and crumbled.  I was disappointed and disillusioned.  I was tempted to quit praying, especially for this particular dream.     God’s spirit ministered to me through the words of Joy Dawson:  “Be encouraged;  no prayer has been wasted.  All prayers are safe in God’s prayer bank and will be cashed in His perfect time…What God starts and energizes, He completes.  It’s His vision and burden.” *  I decided not to give up!

The Holy Spirit also gave me this thought:  The current events could actually be part of  the fulfillment of your request of God.   Now that was a thought to further strengthen my resolve.

I know from personal experience that God tears down to rebuild from the ground up, like He had my marriage (see my story on the book page of this website).  Sometimes dreams have to die and be re-created according to God’s specifications to become beautiful in His perfect time.

This spring I choose to believe that my prayer hasn’t been denied but is in process.  I will wait expectantly, anticipating the thing of beauty God will re-build.

Father God,  I thank You for hearing every one of my prayers and depositing them safely in Your bank.  I praise You for wounding in order to heal, for tearing down to rebuild. You are Good.

*from Intercession, Thrilling and Fulfilling

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Heaven, Our True Home

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The veil between the visible and the invisible is thin.   For my husband Howard the veil is even more thin as he fights cancer.  He peers through the veil into heaven.

One morning I awakened early to find my husband pouring over his systematic theology textbooks.  He was studying heaven.  Later he told that the most distinctive aspect of heaven is that it is the place where Jesus will be seen and known face to face.   “Peter Kreft, the catholic professor of philosophy wrote a book  titled: Heaven: the Heart’s Deepest Longing.  It is true, my deepest longing is for heaven,” said my husband as he shared more of his thoughts with me.

More than streets of gold or foundations of precious stones, the wonder of heaven is Jesus himself.  More than being the place where sadness and tears are long forgotten, it is the place Jesus designed to share with us.

” “in C.S. Lewis’s The Last Battle, the heroes have been transported from Narnia to Aslan’s land.  Aslan’s land is to Narnia what heaven is to earth.  But what soon strikes the characters is how much like Narnia Aslan’s land is – and yet somehow different. They can see all the old familiar landmarks, mountains, rivers, and towns.  But in Aslan’s land these features of Narnia can only be described as “more like the real thing.”  In fact the traveler’s conclude that Aslan’s land is the real Narnia.  The old Narnia was “only a shadow or copy of the real Narnia, which has always been here and always will be here.”   In his excitement, one of them speaks for them all when he says, ” I have come home at last!  This is my real country!  I belong here.  This is the land I have been looking for all my life, though I never knew it now. The reason we loved the old  Narnia is because it looked like this.” ”  *

For now Howard’s home is here with me.  Someday he will go to his real home, the one in Heaven that Jesus has made for him.

*  Ben Patterson from his introduction to the book of Hebrews in the Prayer Devotional Bible

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Hope

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“May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.”  Romans 15:13

Hope.  My husband and I need to hope as he battles cancer.  This verse helps us know how to keep the hope flowing.

Trust.  We need to trust.   Joy and peace are gifts God fills us with as we trust in Him.   Hope overflows out of this joy and peace.   Trust = joy + peace.    Joy + peace = hope.

Romans 5 tells us that hope doesn’t disappoint because God has poured his love into our hearts.  My hope is in God, in His heart, whether or not He heals my husband.  I will not be disappointed in God no matter what happens.  Nevertheless,  I do hope my husband will be healed because nothing is too hard for the God of wonders and miracles

I am thinking about next spring.   I am thinking about what Howard and I will do to celebrate when he is cancer free.   I hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.   It is like breathing.

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Sarah’s Daughter

I was born the daughter  of an alcoholic, and the home I grew up in bred fear.  I learned to avoid fear by control.  That need to control everything threatened the harmony in my marriage, but God rescued my marriage by calling me to become Sarah’s daughter, to become like her by doing what was right and not giving way to fear.  (See I Peter 3.)

What did Sarah do that was right?   How did Sarah not give way to fear?   She obeyed Abraham, her husband,  when he made a choice that put her in a fear producing situation.  (See Genesis 12:10-20.)  God delivered Sarah from that situation miraculously, for Sarah’s hope was in God, not in Abraham.

I became more quiet and gentle in my soul and in my relationship with my husband, as I became more acquainted with the trustworthiness of of my God and transferred the wellspring of my hope from my husband to him.    That hope enabled me to yield to my husband, as to the Lord and for the Lord’s sake.   I learned to first assertively speak the truth in love to my husband about decisions before us and then to yield to him.  Sometimes I have slipped back to the old way of control and disharmony, but the discomfort of fear and anxiety have been powerful motivators to return to the way of peace.

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